43 days till im leaving home

cant believe it... im not even sure that unis the thing for me. Okay well obviously sooner or later id end up in uni anyways, i just feel like everthing is so hustled and like its such a process, you know? Like school, uni, work. no break?

I dunno, there are so many things i wanna do... i was watching this thing on natgeo adventure the other night, and shit that guy on the show, well that guy hes - this is going to sound uber lame- living.. you know? just living. He's basically going around the world and just surfing, like how awesome would that be? Not that i want to surf or anything, but it would be so nice to just travel and see stuff-- watch bands play or take photos... but mostly just hang out, and not have a time limit on that. It would be SO awesome to just drift around the place, and come and go and book plane tickets or train tickets or whatever and when i feel like ive pushed my time somewhere to just leave and move on to somewhere else.

thats what i'd really like to be doing.

but of course, lol im from hk and thats not exactly possible. HKs great you know, but its SO busy and rushed... and most of the time i love that because you feel... i dont know if its an energy or what but you feel a drive to just do stuff and be efficient and get stuff done... and i suppose make something of your self and be successful... but it looks like ive got my whole life ahead to do that, cause im prolly gonna end up living in HK or a similar city in the furture... and that's how thingsll work. So for now, while i can still say im a kid (am i pushing that), and while im still up for stuff and wide eyed and stupid i'd like to not have that very constructive lifestyle to live up to.

ive been thinking i mean ill be done uni in 5 years... and by then ill be 22... which is still young for sure, but after then the only thing that will be on my mind will prolly be getting a job so that i can pay for stuff... or getting a second degree and perhaps then i wont have the time to just travel and stuff.

for now it looks like ill be in uni for sure, and eventhough im pretty nervous and perhaps a little reluctant about it i'm excited. ill still be somewhere new and meeting new people and hanging out and having fun (plus A LOT of work)... which is great! im a little unsure about my major though... im doing a specialist co-op in international development, and it sounded great when i applied and accepted my offer... but now im not really too sure that thats what i want to study. Mainly because it seems to be quite sided towards environmental stuff (which even though is a super great thing to be into, im not too much into), and also because im not too sure about job prospects after i get out. Most likely ill end up working for the NGO i work with in my co op year in another country (prolly somewhere in the middle east or north africa since im studying arabic), which will be super exciting cause ill be living somewhere new... but as much as NGOs do amazing work, a lot of it is very management involved... and i dont think im too into management.

Man, one regret i have from the past school year is that I didnt apply to a journalism program... and journalism is the field I actually want to go into in the future...i was thinking that I'd studying the subject area and then do post grad in journalism later on...but i dont know, i guess its because im having second thoughts about international development...

so, 43 days till i leave home... shit thats fucking scary though it hasnt hit me. the first of people to go will be viv shes leaving in 20 smth... and i think about then it'll really start to get to me you know? its gonna be mega tears at the airport for sure... i dont know what im going to do with out my best friends. they are amazing, like the greatest people ive known so far.

the last while ive been panning down my courses for uni... shit that took so long to get my schedule straight (and its still not completely done!)... but it looks like ive got some things to deffo look forward to and some things to be super afraid of...

Term 1 (im going to have to drop one course, but i cant decide!)
Intro to Standard Arabic
Music of the World's People (i cant wait!)
Intro to Anthropology: Becoming Human
The Geography of Global ProcessesI
Intro to Microeconomics (crazy 3 hour lecture that lasts till 10 pm!)
Intro to Environemental Science (eek! i havent done any sci since gr. 10!)

Term 2
Intro to Standard Arabic II
Intro to Anthropology: Society, Culture, and Language
IDS: Development and Environment
Media and Popular Culture in East Asia (sounds awesome!)
Intro to Macroeconomic (-_-)

so yeah... gotta live summer up!
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